Monday, November 1, 2010

Breastfeeding has become my gateway drug

I was thinking about it tonight and Breastfeeding has lead me to so many new good things in my life. It is my gateway into the crunchy world. Breastfeeding lead me CoSleeping which lead to babywearing, babywearing led me to cloth diapering.

All this seems to be making me a better mother to my girls. I'm not saying Breastfeeding is right for everyone. Formula has its place in our society. But at this time in my life breastfeeding is making me a better person. 

My house is cleaner then ever. I enjoy doing laundry. Dont get me wrong I'll always hate doing dishes :) I'm sewing more. I'm loving life.  I'm spending time just gazing in wonder at the lives that I brought into this world.

I have to work on being a better wife. I'm not a horrid wife by any means. I feel like my kids get ALL of my attention and there is none left over for M some days. I love M. He is a great husband and father. He allows me to stay home with our babies without complaining (too much LOL). He supports me in just about everything. He is my best friend!

I have started to wish I could go back and continue breastfeeding A longer. I feel now as if I cheated her out of a wonderful experience. I'm close to her but I guess I'm missing that bonding time that I get to have with C.  I normally go by the code of "Regret nothing for it lead you to now!". I hate feeling regret because it is pointless.

I don't know if its where I am in my life but I feel like I am in a good place for the first time in a long time.  When I ask myself "What was I put on this earth for? Why was I born?" I feel like I have that answer. I was born to be a mother to A and to C. Someday they will do something wonderful and be someone important. They have too! They are already the most important to me.

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